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Resistance and Post-Ritual Rundown I spend a great deal of my time resisting. Resisting my impulses. Resisting the pressures of society. Resisting people's pre-/misconceptions. I'm doing it right now. I'm cheating, by talking about it, but there it is. I'm coiled up inside like the main spring of a clock, all of the contained energy crying out to be unleashed in a particular direction, to do harm, to cause pain, to fuck somebody up really bad. But I shouldn't. It will only make things worse. Instead I can just bleed off a little bit of that energy here and maybe that will allow me to control myself enough so that I�ll go get a damn haircut instead of involving myself in something that isn't really any of my business. Deep breath...let it out slow. Better. Sort of. Okay -- here is the kind of influence I have on my family. Yesterday, at Temek Prime, we bonded over food (a bizarre ritual, I am sure you would all agree). After bonding, we kind of drifted off to our separate post-ritual wind-down activities. My father (and this is totally weird to me) ensconced himself in a recliner and polished off my copy of Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets before starting on Prisoner of Azkaban. My mom and sister have already read them all. I caused this. My sister went straight for the television set, and fired up the Buffy marathon on FX. My mother eagerly joined her. They both watch Buffy religiously. I caused this too. In between shows and during commercials, my sister and I carried on a piecemeal conversation about this and that band -- all of them beings ones that I introduced her to. Now how about that? Here, because I have it, is a picture of the table before food ritual began. It's small, but again, this is because it is a picture I took with my phone. (I am such a geek.) Haircut? Nah... -t
Currently Aurally Inducing: Pink Martini, Bolero
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